The Passion and Our Personal Journey

Sometimes, no matter how strong we think we are, something so unexpected tugs at our heart and can bring tears to our eyes. Holy week, it was a group of eighth graders that had me with my head down, fighting back tears.

At no point do I consider this a comparison, it only reminded me of crosses we all bear in life. The crosses that we watch our children carry though, seem to be the hardest. I was hesitant to share my feelings on this, but after watching Benjamin struggle with a simple cold for a week (a cold that barely affects my girls), it just seemed appropriate.

Holy Thursday, I attended a Passion Play presented by a group of eighth graders and the most precious Kindergartners as angels. I was completely fine until Jesus’ journey began with the cross. Watching Mary follow Jesus along his path with the pain Jesus endured, I couldn’t help but relate it to the struggles we have to watch our own children go through. Though there is truly no comparison, it was hard not to relate on some level. Benjamin, overall, is a very happy child, but there are times when he is ill that it’s hard to watch without being sad or feeling helpless. I can’t imagine how Mary must have felt, but this day, I felt like maybe some of us get a small glimpse.

As the Passion Play progressed, I recovered again until the image of Mary holding Jesus after his death. I have watched so many families lose their children, and this is the image, the day, I fear more than anything else. Thankfully, I am an optimistic and faith filled person, so the death of a child doesn’t consume me, but deep down I know there will be a day and the imagery of this moment was painful.

Though this brought up some painful feelings for me, just like The Passion Play, it’s not the end. I have met many children who are now angels and who made this world better than when they found it. I know Benjamin has changed us all for the better and I hope he is able to do the same for others. He is here for a purpose and we are blessed with him for a purpose. I know it’s not how long we live on this Earth, but what we do with our time here. Benjamin and his buddies have been making excellent use of their time. 🙂



Benjamin’s Little Buddy

Wednesday April 2nd, Rush Leon Sirmon came into this world kicking and screaming. (What a joyful noise!) After a few days at the hospital, we were released and anxious to get home to the kiddos. Lennon and Isla had met Rush at the hospital, so the only introduction left was for Benjamin.

After arriving home and walking in the door, we quickly brought Rush over to Benjamin. Since Rush was screaming, Benjamin immediately showed his dislike for his new Little Buddy. As days passed, we continued to introduce the two and encouraged contact between them. Finally, a week later, Benjamin quit pushing Rush away and placed his hand on Rush’s arm. Yay, a sweet notion. Well, that was short lived, because today, Benjamin gave Rush a little push in the back to help him roll away from him. I know that this bond will be strong, I just need to give it time. 🙂 I know my vision from last summer of Benjamin and a new baby boy together playing will come to life soon and we will be able to watch this sweet brotherly relationship blossom. ‘Til then, we will carefully monitor Benjamin’s “loving” touch and wait for Rush to retaliate. 🙂





Jack Iko McGuire Memorial Run

On March 29th, months of planning came together on a cool morning for the Jack Iko McGuire Memorial Run at St. Charles Borromeo with all proceeds benefitting the Miracles To Milestones Playground.

Towards the end of last year, I approached the principal at SCB about possibly having a dress down day for the playground. What happened from there was truly set in motion with God’s perfect timing. The day I met with her, she was also approached by the mother of the angel behind the Jack Iko Run, and then followed by a motivated athletic department looking for a good cause. It’s amazing and inspiring how things can fall into place.

The weekend started with a chain competition between classes on Friday. When we showed up with Benjamin, the kids showed such interest in Benjamin. I truly appreciated the questions and sweet comments from the kiddos. I was also able to watch Lennon talk and answer questions about her brother. I couldn’t have been prouder, and you could tell she was too. To my surprise, the students raised over $3000.

Saturday morning, we signed people in and registered new racers , passing out race numbers into the 230’s. 🙂 We received such great support from the people of the church, school, and community.

With the chain competition, successful race, great food and drinks, and endless deserts, SCB raised a total of $11,625.56. We are extremely grateful for all the wonderful people who put so much work into this. I am so very excited knowing the students will be able to enjoy this playground soon.